Somedays I don’t know why I wear a Fitbit. Why wear something that causes anxiety? I don’t need electronics to tell me I didn’t sleep through the night. I didn’t forget my trip to the bathroom. I don’t need it to tell me I haven’t taken 250 steps this hour, I’ve been watching a movie. Oops, another day I haven’t hit my targets. I don’t need that negativity. Yet I still wear this watch, not because it tells time, but for all its bells and whistles.
The heart rate data is interesting. I’m amazed at how my daily resting heart rate fluctuates. Some months I go from high to low weekly, other months have a steadier heart rate. April, the month I decided to start writing about joy, was my lowest resting heart rate month.
What does all this have to do with joy? In looking at my weekly heart readings, yesterday my heart rate was in the high range. Why? I didn’t work. I went for a walk in the morning, and my evening activities were canceled, I got some cleaning done and repaired the toy I said, I’d get to. Ohh but as I write this, I had a lot of salt yesterday. Possible salt intake aside. Today I felt disquieted. A heavy feeling was within. I would say it was an anxious feeling without the worry. My resting heart rate was lower than yesterday.
Again, what does all of this have to do with joy? Identifying feelings and emotions, regardless of a resting heart rate, is part of this study. If I become calmer and calmer, will my chances of experiencing joy increase?